Doubts

Inaction breeds doubt and fear.  Action breeds confidence and courage.  If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it.  Go out and get busy.  -- Dale Carnegie

Recently my husband asked me if I had doubts that I could do the HIM.  He wasn't being unkind - he was being honest.  We had gone for a bike ride together on Sunday and I was disappointed with my performance.  Based on my negative self-talk, he was worried that I was worried that I couldn't do the race.

Have no fear - remember, my goal this year is to STRIVE.  I have a lot of work to do between now and September 7, but I'm not starting from couch potato status.  I'm just slower than I'd like to be in all 3 disciplines.  Honestly, if you pressed me right now, I could probably do an HIM, but it wouldn't be pretty and it probably would take longer than the cut-off time of 8 hours.  But that's with minimal training on the bike and the swim.  With some 25 weeks of training (or 178 days, as my handy-dandy countdown calendar tells me), I will be fine.

That being said, there is work to be done.  I will be hitting the bike with much more regularity after the half-mary this weekend and continuing to go to Masters swim when it fits in the schedule.  Also, starting in April, OWS practices start so I can get comfortable swimming in the river.  Any fears I have, even the itty bitty ones in the back of my head that happen when I have a bad workout, will be driven out by action.